Paano ko ba ito sisimulan?
Ang dami-daming nangyari, sa totoo lang.
Looking back at my past blogs, nasa healing phase pa ako, but right now, masasabi ko na sa sarili ko na okay na ako, at genuinely happy. Nick was there, he always makes me happy in a way that no one else can. He completes my day. But sometimes, my actions towards him, nakakalampas na sa boundaries so I should always remind myself of the limits. These days, inaamin kong sobrang distracted ako. Eto na yung ikinakatakot ko. I don't want him to turn into my biggest distraction, I just want him to be my motivation and inspiration.
Nitong intrams, we weren't able to talk to each other, even if we tell na close na kami, sobra kong pinipigilan yung sarili ko na mas ma-attach sakanya, kasi alam kong mawawala din siya soon, alam kong hindi na ito magiging masaya, magiging komplikado na. At hanggang hindi pa nangyayari yung oras na yun, I want to make more memories with him, even if it will hurt, even if mahihirapan ako makalimutan siya.
This blog, sabi ko pang-intrams, pero biglang napunta sakanya. Nik, masyado na kitang gusto, paano ba itigil itong nararamdaman ko sa'yo? Gustong-gusto kita, umaabot sa point na sana, tumigil muna yung oras, hindi ko pa gustong matapos itong school year na ito kasi alam kong matatapos din yung kung ano mang meron.
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