How do I unlove you?
Kapag ganitong mga sitwasyon, you were the first person occuring in my mind. It's been 1 month since I last posted here on my blog. Nothing much happened, at kung tatanungin niyo kung nakamove-on na ba ako? Hindi pa. O baka nga okay na ako? Hindi ko lang alam sa sarili ko. How can I possibly know if nakaget-over na ako sa kanya? During our last convo, I literally told him na it might take me years, or even a decadE to move on from him. Is it too exaggerated? I meant every words I said. And until now, hindi ako makatakas sa fact na I still love him. Kung tatanungin, bakit sa dinami-dami ng taong nakilala ko, siya yung minahal ko? Kung tutuusin, I really tried na sa iba mapunta yung attention ko. I admit na nagkagusto ako sa girl, more like I find her attractive but not to the point na "like" maybe I was just confused during those times. My heart was so broken because of a guy so the only thing that I can do was to distract myself. But it was so wrong na sa iba ko hinahanap yung healing. I should heal my heart, alone. At ngayon na hindi talaga ako na-a-a-attract or nagkakagusto sa iba. Na kahit ipaharap niyo pa sakin yung pinaka -attractive at pinakamabait na tao sa mundo, walang magagawa itong puso ko. Kasi hanggang ngayon, siya parin yung sinisigaw nito.
So Nissy, kailan ka ba talaga makaka-get over? It's been 6 months, akala ko ba healed ka na? Akala ko okay ka na?
Pero all I want to happen is to be emotionally okay completely. Sana dumating yung time na yon. Maybe, just maybe, if I can't unlove him, then I will just love him in a different way. Yung hindi na ako masasaktan.
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