Every night, every time that I was about to sleep, lagi kong iniisip yung mga past mistakes ko which lead me to where I am right now. I hurt a lot of people that I once considered my best kind of friends. Those people have their own squads now and I am happy for them. Pero I have this thinking na what if inayos ko? Yung ako yung mag-a-approach dahil ako rin naman yung may kasalanan. I know in myself na ma-pride akong tao. I don't easily realize that I was the one who is hurting them, basically I'm playing the victim. My past self reflects my present self but that doesn't mean I didn't change.
Napatawad na ba nila ako? Lagi kong iniisip na ako lagi yung naiiwan sa barkada, pero the real thing is, ako yung nang-iiwan ng barkada. They were the one who always come to me, dahil sobrang hindi ako masyadong magaling makipag-communicate. Pero the time na I met new people, iniisip ko na lalayo na ba sila? Pero ako pala yung lumalayo sa kanila.
I always identified myself as a kind and friendly person, pero it is different on other people's perspective.
As time goes by, I know I did a lot of stuff that made our friendship grow apart, but I always wish that even if they won't forgive me for what I did, I hope they found the right people who can treat them well genuinely.
I'm sorry.
Yours truly, nissy
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