If I could only tell my friends what I feel right now, will they be able to understand me?
Hmmm, pare-parehas kaming may pinagdadaanan in life, how can I tell them na I am currently losing myself? I feel like ang sama-sama kong tao sa nangyayari ngayon sa buhay ko, is it too exaggerated? I don't know my mind is too chaotic.
Nagmahal lang naman ako, pero mali yung paraan ko ng pagmamahal. Because it ruined me, it ruined us.
If only I could predict na ganito pala yung mangyayari, hindi na sana ako nagkaroon ng attraction sakanya during shs days which lead me to where I am right now. Now I am regretting that I fell in love with him. Everything was a mess. I am currently a mess.
I thought once I get over from him, tapos na. Nakalaya na ako sa mga pagkakamaling desisyon na nagawa ko sa buhay. But mali ako ng akala, minumulto ako ng nakaraan, may mga bagay ako na nagawa na hindi ko na kaya pang balikan.
And the worst thing that is happening to me right now is that, hindi ko magawang maipaglaban yung sarili ko, kasi alam ko rin naman sa sarili kong ako yung mali dito.
Pero nasasaktan din naman ako, paano ba kapag ganito?
Move forward and never look back.
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